loving you...

ever think of someone and it gives you a little shiver?
a good shiver, i mean. T!

so today i've done pretty much nothing so far.

when you need someone who can let you win, you can count me out.

i confirmed my meeting with Jennifer from the florist, and that's pretty much it.
right, i haven't mentioned that in my blog have i?
so there's this florist, the manasquan florist, and the owners are selling.
yours truely is looking into buying. i'm just gonna saunter in there and slap my big wad of cash on the table and say "i'll take it!" hahaha...
right.
but really. i've spoken to one of the owners a couple of times and she's really nice and all so i decided to go down and meet them all, see the shop and so on. who knows if i could really do this. (it's about time i started to think i could do SOMETHING though, right?) so i'm going just to get a general idea of - what? i don't really know. anything and everything. maybe even just an insight to how it would be if i started a florist on my own, instead of trying to buy this one. it's a split desision. pro's and con's on each side. it's just a matter of weighing them out.

my niece is sitting here with me, coloring. somtimes i'm just mesmerized by her. she just sits there, all content, talking about random stuff. and not really TO me, but just out loud. to herself i guess.
geeze i remember when i was little and all i did all day was sit around and color, draw - antything creative where i could make a mess.
i'm still making a mess - i just don't know how creative or productive i'm being in the process.

i've been listening to alot of Whiskeytown lately.

sit around dream away the place i'm from. i used to feel so much, now i just feel dumb. could go out out tonight but i aint sure what for. call a friend or two i don't know anymore.

so what did i do this weekend? hm. saturday i spent the whole day painting my room. and in the end i found that i didn't have enough paint to finish the last wall. one gallon of paint should have been more than enough for my room, but all the walls needed two coats. so now i have three pale lime-y green walls and one yellow one. great! ugh. so. the room is still a mess and i really thought that with these 4 days off i could have gotten it all straightened out. but i was busy yesterday and i'm busy tomorrow and as we can see - today is turning into a big old nothing.

yesterday i went to a show in staten island with carl, jasmine and holly :) baby's first show! it was at this guy phil's house. it was really nice to be outside all day since i'm usually stuck inside. and when the bands were playing jasmine and i took holly for a little walk. it wasn't too loud even when we were at the house cause we were out front and the bands played in the back. and of course everyone just loved holly cause, let's face it - she's too freakin cute! and she was so good the whole time! it's amazing how good that baby is.

so tomorrow is the eels show in NY! i'm excited to go see them. plus tomorrow's a whole tommy day! those are always a good thing. haven't had one in a while.

i'd better go shower and figure out what i'm wearing tonight.
yikes.

next time you hear from me i will either:
a. be the new owner of the manasquan florist
b. be the same dumb-old me. doing nothing.
c. interviewing for some great fashion design jobs in ny.

i'm banking on b.

bye.